Working through it…

For those who have been worried, everything will eventually be fine. I’m working through everything with the person involved. As everyone has suggested, I finally talked to the person involved. This person agreed that I could talk to the Wife about it. Afterwards, the three of us sat down and talked about it. Everything will, someday, be fine.

Working through it…

For those who have been worried, everything will eventually be fine. I’m working through everything with the person involved. As everyone has suggested, I finally talked to the person involved. This person agreed that I could talk to the Wife about it. Afterwards, the three of us sat down and talked about it. Everything will, someday, be fine.

The Trouble with Secrets

just got back from a long drive. I was hoping that it would help clear my mind. It didn’t. As I was out driving, I took note of every bar that I passed. I think I’m starting to understand why some people drink to get rid of the pain. While I didn’t stop, I wanted to. Instead I went to the Temple, which, being 11:00 pm, was closed. I pulled into the parking lot of the Stake Center next to it and just sat there and thought. I looked at the white luster of the Las Vegas Nevada Temple, and the glittering lights of the Las Vegas metropolitan area. While I was there, I thought of something that that I wrote, back in 1996. The very end of it reads: “Will someone ever be able to, Oh, be able to glue together, The pieces of my broken heart?” I don’t entirely know why I thought about it, but, in a very real way, this secret has broken my heart.

You know the trouble with secrets? No one knows. What makes this one particularly troubling is that the person it regards doesn’t know that I know.  I can’t feel like I can talk to that person without a big fight, without a lot of heartache. I can’t feel like I can talk to anyone else because this secret, if it got out, could really hurt this person. I care about this person too much to do that to this person. I’ve thought about going to see a Mental Health Professional, but can’t bring myself to do that. I’ve thought about going to see my Bishop, but I don’t think I want him to know this secret. I’ve tried to pray, but I can’t get the words out.

For a while yesterday (Thursday), I felt like I was getting out of the worst of it, but then, the nightmares started to haunt my mind again. I think I’ve cried more since learning of this secret on the 23rd than I have… I frankly don’t now how long. I don’t know how much longer I will be able to deal with this. I feel so… alone. I don’t know what to do.

The Trouble with Secrets

just got back from a long drive. I was hoping that it would help clear my mind. It didn’t. As I was out driving, I took note of every bar that I passed. I think I’m starting to understand why some people drink to get rid of the pain. While I didn’t stop, I wanted to. Instead I went to the Temple, which, being 11:00 pm, was closed. I pulled into the parking lot of the Stake Center next to it and just sat there and thought. I looked at the white luster of the Las Vegas Nevada Temple, and the glittering lights of the Las Vegas metropolitan area. While I was there, I thought of something that that I wrote, back in 1996. The very end of it reads: “Will someone ever be able to, Oh, be able to glue together, The pieces of my broken heart?” I don’t entirely know why I thought about it, but, in a very real way, this secret has broken my heart.

You know the trouble with secrets? No one knows. What makes this one particularly troubling is that the person it regards doesn’t know that I know.  I can’t feel like I can talk to that person without a big fight, without a lot of heartache. I can’t feel like I can talk to anyone else because this secret, if it got out, could really hurt this person. I care about this person too much to do that to this person. I’ve thought about going to see a Mental Health Professional, but can’t bring myself to do that. I’ve thought about going to see my Bishop, but I don’t think I want him to know this secret. I’ve tried to pray, but I can’t get the words out.

For a while yesterday (Thursday), I felt like I was getting out of the worst of it, but then, the nightmares started to haunt my mind again. I think I’ve cried more since learning of this secret on the 23rd than I have… I frankly don’t now how long. I don’t know how much longer I will be able to deal with this. I feel so… alone. I don’t know what to do.

When you feel you have no one to talk to…

Even though I have a lot of really good friends, a loving wife, and a great family, I don’t really have anyone that I feel that I can discuss this secret with. At least, I’ve been able to stop thinking about it so much and even was able to smile a little bit today. This has just really shocked and hurt me, deeply. There are moments that I feel that I won’t be able to get over it, and then there are moments when I ask myself why I am even letting it bother me. I feel that I’m about to crack up. I feel so alone…

When you feel you have no one to talk to…

Even though I have a lot of really good friends, a loving wife, and a great family, I don’t really have anyone that I feel that I can discuss this secret with. At least, I’ve been able to stop thinking about it so much and even was able to smile a little bit today. This has just really shocked and hurt me, deeply. There are moments that I feel that I won’t be able to get over it, and then there are moments when I ask myself why I am even letting it bother me. I feel that I’m about to crack up. I feel so alone…

How do you forget?

Have you ever learned a secret about someone close to you that you wish you didn’t know? If so, has the thought of it haunted you? Does it make you sad, upset, embarrassed and betrayed? Do you release that these feelings are unjustified as, true be told, it doesn’t change anything? How do you forget? How do you get over it? How can you get the nightmare to stop in your head?

How do you forget?

Have you ever learned a secret about someone close to you that you wish you didn’t know? If so, has the thought of it haunted you? Does it make you sad, upset, embarrassed and betrayed? Do you release that these feelings are unjustified as, true be told, it doesn’t change anything? How do you forget? How do you get over it? How can you get the nightmare to stop in your head?

CCSN Security Breach

In February of 2007, the then named Community College of Southern Nevada had a server that was broken into. This server contained the Social Security Numbers, Full Names, and date of births of about 100,000 current and former students. They decided that May 2007 was a good time to notify everyone about the problem. I am one of the 100,000 people who received a letter regarding this.

I’d encourage anyone who went there (or, like me, still goes there), to contact the credit reporting companies and put Fraud Alert on their accounts. Although the College didn’t suggest it, I think they should have.

You can call 1-888-766-0008 (Equifax) and they’ll forward the Fraud Alert to the other two (Transunion and Experian) for you. You can also go to Experian’s website at experian.com/initialfraudreport and do the request online. Again, they’ll forward the information to the other two companies. If you (or anyone else) tries to get credit with your info over the next 90 days, the report is suppose to tell them to call you at the number(s) you give during the fraud alert registration and also informs the company that you may have been the victim of fraud.

I’d also recommend going to www.OptOutPrescreen.com and get your name off the credit card offers list.

CCSN Security Breach

In February of 2007, the then named Community College of Southern Nevada had a server that was broken into. This server contained the Social Security Numbers, Full Names, and date of births of about 100,000 current and former students. They decided that May 2007 was a good time to notify everyone about the problem. I am one of the 100,000 people who received a letter regarding this.

I’d encourage anyone who went there (or, like me, still goes there), to contact the credit reporting companies and put Fraud Alert on their accounts. Although the College didn’t suggest it, I think they should have.

You can call 1-888-766-0008 (Equifax) and they’ll forward the Fraud Alert to the other two (Transunion and Experian) for you. You can also go to Experian’s website at experian.com/initialfraudreport and do the request online. Again, they’ll forward the information to the other two companies. If you (or anyone else) tries to get credit with your info over the next 90 days, the report is suppose to tell them to call you at the number(s) you give during the fraud alert registration and also informs the company that you may have been the victim of fraud.

I’d also recommend going to www.OptOutPrescreen.com and get your name off the credit card offers list.